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You break me
You break me, the pull is stronger then the push..
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Mr. Ozzy
Well for people who have followed my horse back riding, I am still riding Ozzy.
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I am currently fighting to keep my medicaid, I need it for all my doctors, and medical transportation. I am currently screwed and hoping in a month or 2 with what I've been told to do, I will have medicaid back and my medical transportation. Somehow they moved my case and medicaid saw I make over $800 a month, I am on SSD.... ffs. I barely make it through atm on it. You expect me to fucking live on $800 a month. Long island NY?... no fucking way. My bills alone are over $800 a month (rent included), hopefully with the route im taking and if it gets started my income will come across as being below $800 and medicaid wont force me to pay $800 a month, cause if they do I will have to drop them and I have no idea what the fuck I will do to get a new therapist, doctor, psych...yet alone im currently getting a new one...TMS treatment alone i need BADLY...doctor...EVERYONE...

Fucking pray this all works out in 1 month not longer. I am beyond stressed the fuck out, and my therapist is on vacation and left and everything was fine till the next day and he has no idea. And the fact medicaid said they sent me a letter may 25th I never got, they need to extend my fucking insurance by a month, so all my doctors fucking get paid if im lucky maybe even my medical taxi...

I am having money issues beyond belief...and this TMS treatment I need I was hoping will get me better, now i don't know whats going to happen now...

I saw maybe a future of getting a part time job... but as of right now... im being fucked over due to my disability money that barely gets me by every month, because of bills. food being so much money now... etc... :('


It's taking everything in me to not break down and loose it, and to keep myself calm. To not self harm. To not cry. I really can't right now. Everything started to look forward and then as always something has to come along like a tornado and destroy my fucking life....


I never catch a break ... and people probably wonder why I ask for money for certain things, im not fucking greedy im trying to make it through the fucking month and feel like a fucking failure asking. I should be somewhere in life by now at age of 26, almost 27 soon. All my high school friends, college, jobs, kids, a life...


Me... im a fucking suffering disabled mess...and life loves to fuck me in the fucking face. Over and over.
I am currently fighting to keep my medicaid, I need it for all my doctors, and medical transportation. I am currently screwed and hoping in a month or 2 with what I've been told to do, I will have medicaid back and my medical transportation. Somehow they moved my case and medicaid saw I make over $800 a month, I am on SSD.... ffs. I barely make it through atm on it. You expect me to fucking live on $800 a month. Long island NY?... no fucking way. My bills alone are over $800 a month (rent included), hopefully with the route im taking and if it gets started my income will come across as being below $800 and medicaid wont force me to pay $800 a month, cause if they do I will have to drop them and I have no idea what the fuck I will do to get a new therapist, doctor, psych...yet alone im currently getting a new one...TMS treatment alone i need BADLY...doctor...EVERYONE...

Fucking pray this all works out in 1 month not longer. I am beyond stressed the fuck out, and my therapist is on vacation and left and everything was fine till the next day and he has no idea. And the fact medicaid said they sent me a letter may 25th I never got, they need to extend my fucking insurance by a month, so all my doctors fucking get paid if im lucky maybe even my medical taxi...

I am having money issues beyond belief...and this TMS treatment I need I was hoping will get me better, now i don't know whats going to happen now...

I saw maybe a future of getting a part time job... but as of right now... im being fucked over due to my disability money that barely gets me by every month, because of bills. food being so much money now... etc... :('


It's taking everything in me to not break down and loose it, and to keep myself calm. To not self harm. To not cry. I really can't right now. Everything started to look forward and then as always something has to come along like a tornado and destroy my fucking life....


I never catch a break ... and people probably wonder why I ask for money for certain things, im not fucking greedy im trying to make it through the fucking month and feel like a fucking failure asking. I should be somewhere in life by now at age of 26, almost 27 soon. All my high school friends, college, jobs, kids, a life...


Me... im a fucking suffering disabled mess...and life loves to fuck me in the fucking face. Over and over.

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:icondeepgrounduk:
deepgrounduk Featured By Owner May 3, 2016
thanks and yes, add your flickr details, happy to pop over and take a look :D have a great day ;-)
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WistfulDesigns Featured By Owner May 3, 2016  Hobbyist Interface Designer
thanks, ive got a ton of work on flickr and i keep forgetting to link everyone on here >_< smacks self. ill be using yours one day hopefully. for a male if i find a model on secondlife
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deepgrounduk Featured By Owner May 1, 2016
hello, thanks for faving Skulls and Wings Stock Deepgrounduk DeviantArt, really appreciated :D
you have some great work here to ;D
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Black-Veil-Illusion Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2015
Thank you for the fave!!!
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Embrace-Fate Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Most welcome.
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WistfulDesigns Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015  Hobbyist Interface Designer
thanks!!!!! :)
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WistfulDesigns Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015  Hobbyist Interface Designer
thanks!!!! :DDD
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WistfulDesigns Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015  Hobbyist Interface Designer
awwww thank you :D!!!
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Devils-Angel-21 Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Happy Birthday! I hope you had a good one! :party:
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Embrace-Fate Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday!
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guaglione Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015
Happy birthday!
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WistfulDesigns Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2015  Hobbyist Interface Designer
thanks :D <3
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xAtramentum Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Bit  ahead of time, but happy birthday :heart:
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Starluscious Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2015   General Artist
Hi there, have a blessed day neighbor. Reading your comment back now. :)
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WilhemStudley Featured By Owner May 1, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Goofball :3
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Premier1er-Stock Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2015  Professional General Artist
Thank you for the fave!Instant FaveNommy smile  
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WistfulDesigns Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2015  Hobbyist Interface Designer
I will!
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EquinePhotoandStock Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you very much for the favourite. Keep an eye out for more of my horse stock photos being uploaded!
Rocky Lying Down by EquinePhotoandStock  
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WistfulDesigns Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2014  Hobbyist Interface Designer
I remember when a 30 minute lessons was 25 bucks
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BadBoyPower69 Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2014
more or less why i dont anymore lol
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WistfulDesigns Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2014  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Ohhhhhhh, haha sorry. I feel dumb now. I can't ride due to lack of funds
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BadBoyPower69 Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2014
you asked why i stopped riding horses
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WistfulDesigns Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2014  Hobbyist Interface Designer
I really forgot what we were talking about :3
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BadBoyPower69 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2014
we moved and ended up selling them off
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WistfulDesigns Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2014  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Why did you stop?
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