I am currently fighting to keep my medicaid, I need it for all my doctors, and medical transportation. I am currently screwed and hoping in a month or 2 with what I've been told to do, I will have medicaid back and my medical transportation. Somehow they moved my case and medicaid saw I make over $800 a month, I am on SSD.... ffs. I barely make it through atm on it. You expect me to fucking live on $800 a month. Long island NY?... no fucking way. My bills alone are over $800 a month (rent included), hopefully with the route im taking and if it gets started my income will come across as being below $800 and medicaid wont force me to pay $800 a month, cause if they do I will have to drop them and I have no idea what the fuck I will do to get a new therapist, doctor, psych...yet alone im currently getting a new one...TMS treatment alone i need BADLY...doctor...EVERYONE...
Fucking pray this all works out in 1 month not longer. I am beyond stressed the fuck out, and my therapist is on vacation and left and everything was fine till the next day and he has no idea. And the fact medicaid said they sent me a letter may 25th I never got, they need to extend my fucking insurance by a month, so all my doctors fucking get paid if im lucky maybe even my medical taxi...
I am having money issues beyond belief...and this TMS treatment I need I was hoping will get me better, now i don't know whats going to happen now...
I saw maybe a future of getting a part time job... but as of right now... im being fucked over due to my disability money that barely gets me by every month, because of bills. food being so much money now... etc...
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It's taking everything in me to not break down and loose it, and to keep myself calm. To not self harm. To not cry. I really can't right now. Everything started to look forward and then as always something has to come along like a tornado and destroy my fucking life....
I never catch a break ... and people probably wonder why I ask for money for certain things, im not fucking greedy im trying to make it through the fucking month and feel like a fucking failure asking. I should be somewhere in life by now at age of 26, almost 27 soon. All my high school friends, college, jobs, kids, a life...
Me... im a fucking suffering disabled mess...and life loves to fuck me in the fucking face. Over and over.