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I am really not ignoring anyone on here. I haven't gone through all of the comments. I am having a really rough 2 months and last 2 weeks been bad and it's taking a toll. I am not very open unless talked to on here but it's mainly my depression, anxiety, panic attacks and my border line personality disorder kicking in. I been having major money issues because I need to buy winter clothing and its taking a toll on my only income once a month. I wish I knew people who could be my size and donate some cute long sleeves and jeans. But im left to fend to buy on my own. I also have my pets to take care of which is hard when depressed. I been loosing track of time. I'm sorry guys dont be offended if I don't write back till days or even weeks. I will reframe from posting anything else for awhile till it passes.....unless I get a great shot of me.... next month haircut and dye!
Exit
I try to decompress, but my just won't rest, I can find the escape, the exit sign. There's no glow in the distance, hands grasping in the dark, will you find me god?, cause I'm so lost, and love is putrid, I can taste it on my tongue, the decay of my heart, who am i?, who am i?, why am i searching for happiness he won't let me find, he has a grasp in my hand, pulling me into some, and when I scream, he silences my echoes, oh god these chains of burden have become so hard to fight, will you be ashamed of me if I danced to the devils words, this world is spinning around me, wondering though do I even matter, I need a sign, oh god. Oh god, I can
Paypal?
Anyone want to donate to my paypal for my birthday so I could maybe go out to eat or buy myself breakfast...nothing is really going on for my birthday :(.....
Wistfultragedy@gmail.com is my paypal
Question for you all,
Should I download my tablet and start doing horse manipulations again?, would you guys like to see that work again?
And...
Do you guys want more of my secondlife avatar work?
Writing?
I feel you inside of me
I am not myself
You are looking through my eyes
And controlling what I say
Going to make everyone hate me
Cause you say, you say
Everyone thinks you are a burden
And everyone hates you
As you hate yourself
And I hate you
Do yourself a favor
And just die
You may be remembered
But the burden is taken off
The shoulders of these people
Won't have to worry
Oh about how you act
on't have to worry anymore
About who you are next
Incapable of love
You need to push them all away
You're body is all these men need
Give yourself up
Cause the devil is within
Succumb to my sins
That slither from my mouth
You
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